Yesh I have been in quite the horsey mood lately, I am not sure what it is, but I am. I think it's just because school is getting harder and I need that calming sense of the horses near me. Mary was sold I want to cry, she is amazing good thing is that she is still at the barn and I can still see her, bad news, I don't think I can ride her. I have decided that I am going to college for Equine Training because this fascination seems to be taking over my life, almost, but its just something that calls to you, almost pulls you in, I don't know how many people understand this but if you do, the awesome, I can totally relate. I feel like all I want to do is spend time at the farm to calm me down and to have fun. Though it might not be the best idea to spend too much time at a farm now because my asthma medication needs to be refilled, and its over 200$ for them. =.= yea I know I am a problem child and it sucks with the amount of medication I have to take to just function on a day to day basis. Horses are calming, and I never mind being around them. they make me feel so energetic and happy its ridiculous . I am thinking of getting into horseback riding soon, I am hoping to get out to a stable close to where I live on Thursday with my friend Beth and join up with a friend from soccer who happens to ride there named Bella. I am really excited about this.

I really have the need to take pictures of horses as well, but I don't have time to right now which makes me really upset, mainly because Neko is so busy with school that I do not wish to disturb him. Things are complicated now, less so than they were 3 weeks ago, but you know what? I am H A P P Y and I love it. :3 However my home situation is not going very well at all. My parents are constantly fighting over the offer on the house, dad says its too low, I agree mom says go with it, but that's easy for her to say, she makes so much more than dad does and their divorcing, and its just so hard to go through everything with my medical issues, school, and now my parents, I don't know how I am still standing.....

-sighs- Life, as a teenager is hard enough, add divorcing parents, University/ College choices, passing high school with good grades (honor roll, doctors playing a guessing game with your health never knowing what it really is, only ever being able to make the closest guess, along with horrible knee pain that seems to be affecting me now more than it has within the last year, then having teachers NOT understand what your going through. Its so hard.

My friends keep me going the thought of them always trying to help me feel better and worrying helps me put on a smile every day, helps me be energetic and so happy to be around them. They keep me going every day and I am so so thankful that I have them all in my life, I know I'm such a dork but I am so very thankful.

As soon as I graduate and I go off to Ridgetown college, I'm going to start my life there, I will begin a new chapter of my life, make new friends, keep in contact with the old, have fun, train hard, work harder, and above all have fun with what I am doing with my life, because this is my passion. It just took me longer than expected for me to find it. But thank god I found it.

Let me know what your plans are for College or University, or what you're already doing, if you're happy with your choice, or if you regret your choice. I'd love to hear what you have to say!